Saturday, August 8, 2009

Infidelity.

Some sins sometimes feel too big to forgive. With chronic consequences like Adam and Eve…

How do you begin to explain or justify the inexcusable…

Or tell someone that you didn’t mean to break their heart, it will be okay and the bleeding will stop one day; when you dropped their heart, watched it slip without flinching or trying to stop it from falling and shattering into a million pieces?

Make it look like I was framed when reality is that I set myself up, and fell for it too.

It wasn’t premeditated but preventable…I guess it doesn’t matter if it all ends up the same way!


How do you explain (even to yourself) that you weren’t thinking when you did it yet you were sober as a priest?

Shit happens…when you let it.
Why, now that’s the unexplained part…

How do I always end up the heartless bitch yet I started off with good intentions?!

How do I say sorry when it’s too little too late?...or are those who cheat on loved ones confined to a doomed fate?

Now I know why the conservatives encourage youth not to get into relationships (especially sexual ones) at a young age, (but my big headed smart ass had to find this out-well more like confirm since I was warned-the hard way ) and not to date a lot but rather settle down with one person quickly…experience in love is scaring.

Growing pains perhaps…or battle wounds?

Either way it fucking hurts, and leaves a mark too…

16 comments:

yz said...

(((((ms. eizzy))))))

eizzy.k said...

Awww thanks yz!!
((YZ))
Think i figured what to do though...i'm gonna make him a mixtape CD!

what you think?

normzo said...

OHHH...MISS eizzy,its so hard, let me say it would be insensitive to expect to be forgiven by someone you have wronged/cheated on.

in my experience, yes i ask for forgivenes..but its that persons prerogative to accept it or not.

it hurts....

anyway hope u sort yoself, but i woudltn blame myself so much for something thats already happened... just have to find a way out of that, and live on.

James Tubman said...

i dont care

as log as you dont have any diseases im straight

one female i was messing with told me she was sleeping with other (plural) men

i said "that's cool, as long as i get a slot in the rotation" lol

you shouldn't be jealous anyway

you re a pisces and pisces dont get jealous

eizzy.k said...

@ normzo - I know... :-( i just want to make things right, but dont know how or where to begin...

@ Thats messed up tubeman...i'm not yet that jaded! and dont ever hope to be...

Mckeith said...

Now hopefully ask for forgiveness then let it go. When you apologise you have put the ball right in the other persons court. Its totaly upto them.

Its heartbreaking but the human within us has freedom. The freedom that no other creature on earth has. Just find a way out of it.

xsamx said...

your problem is how not to break hearts... well, mine is the complete opposite! how can i break it off with someone and not get hurt (physically)if you catch my drift...

eizzy.k said...

omg sam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
U're back? thought u had 4gotten all about blogger!

hmmm wana switch places?...lol

xsamx said...

I'm planning on buying a laptop and internet connection so when i do i will start to blog again. You in the country?

Payo said...

How do I always end up the heartless bitch yet I started off with good intentions?!

Happens to the best of us! Not the bitch part though. Take heart...all the wronged will have their revenge.

elmilitant said...

Well, I personally don't support the conservatives. They're a bunch of people who don't really understand their own beliefs.

In most ancient cultures, teens were married off. So the issue of maturity for such heavy relationships is thrown out.

As for cheating, well, that's a personal choice, not limited to belief. The flesh is weak, but the soul is strong...

Be silent said...

Pretty tight...

nevender said...

You aren't a sinner because you sin. You sin because you are a sinner. Just a philosophical note.

Samantha said...

I think i like it better the other way around...
You don't sin because your a sinner, You're a sinner because you sin!
God is all about forgiveness! LOL!

Sleek said...

if you've done the apology bit, then all is left is some days of self-loathing, alcohol, weed...and then u'll snap out of it; if they are to come around, they will...hang in there

Sleek said...

been too long...